I want her to know that not a day goes by I don't think about her
I want her to know she is one of the first people I think about when I wake up each morning
I want her to know I pray for her every day, numerous times a day
I want her to know I love her in a way I can't explain
I want her to know contrary to what people think I should feel I don't feel threatened by her love for Eliana. She loves her as a mother loves her daughter, and I understand and embrace that.
I want her to know I do my best every day so if she were watching she would feel proud of me and proud that she chose me to be Eliana's mother
I want her to know I talk to Eliana every day all day and tell her how loved she is
I want her to know I give Eliana kisses from her every day
I want her to know when Eliana smiles it reminds me of her and I think of how much she resembles her
I want her to know I would give her anything in the world if it would help take away any pain she has
I want her to know I can't imagine how hard the holidays are going to be for her
I want her to know that her emails and texts bring me joy and I savor every one of them
I want her to know that I can not wait to see her again
I want her to know that Eliana will ALWAYS know how much she loved her and wanted the very best for her.
(I saw this on another blog, and I found it to be very much the way I feel)